Final Countdown!!!

This year marks the end of many things in my life...
And on 29 Nov, I had the final exam (I hope)...
It was a challenging one which would determine if my years in uni had been wasted...
5 years of hard work (or slacking I supposed as I seldom find myself in sch)...
And this exam would determine it all...

Halfway through my presentation, the full Prof, Prof Wang interrupted my presentation... And throughout the presentation, he was asking questions after questions and disrupting my flow of thoughts... Merciless!!!

All the questions from the panel was dealt with ease...
Except those coming from Prof Wang...

Was being whacked up, down, left, right, centre by him.... and couldn't really answer some of the questions posed by him... From the way he asked the questions and finding fault with me, it seemed that he wasn't really happy with my work and would not be willing to pass me...

Then I was asked to leave the room for the panel to decide on the outcome...

For the 1st time in my life, I froze. Never felt so freaked out before in my life...
It was a long 15min... and I felt cold... the thought of not going to make it frightened me... Was the 5 yrs going to be wasted? Am I gg to attempt it again if I could not make it? Would I still have the energy and time to attempt it again...
The thoughts were scary...

Then the door openned and my prof asked me in...

The panel of examiners extended their hands to me and said , "Congratulations! You have fulfilled all the requirements. Now we can officially address you XX Pang."

That was sweet....

Opportunity cost...

Suddenly it dawned on me the real meaning of opportunity cost.
Sometimes the sacrifices to make is really too huge?

The decision was made before sept 2008 before I went Taiwan...
I made the decision to fulfil the promises that I made and to build what I set out for....

Never would I expect the sum to come up to SGD $76,400, when you put down in dollars and cents!

That's money!!! I think I can buy alot of things with it and wouldn't be as poor as what I am now...

Is this sacrifice too huge? I've been wondering for the past 1 yr....

Especially, for something that's not going to be mine or should I say something that I am losing .....

Did I fulfil the promises I made?
To the best of my ability , yes...

Did I manage to build what I set out for?
I am still wondering.... probably yes? I hope....

But it no longer belongs to me....
当东西已不属于你，只有把手放开，潇洒地走开。。。
就让别人继承吧！

Any regrets?
尽了全力就好。。。不要再回头看了。。。:)

Come to think of it, how many people are willing to give up SGD $76,400 for something that .......

And wait... I forgot to take into account the bonuses in my calculations... $.$ .... Haha...

Back From Overseas?

Haha... just came back from an overseas trip...
Was an interesting one... though still counting the injuries... :S
But never had such a good nite slp for a long long time....
Basically, besides training, I would just be sleeping....

And.... It's been a long time since I last dreamt of something....
Or should I say remember my dreams....

I almost had a dream every nite.... n all of them seemed so interesting...
Been dreaming of the ppl I miss very much, frens from overseas, some unsettled stuff, some things I wished for, some things that I wished will never happen and even some things that happened in the past but without any conclusion and about the day watching the fireworks....

Seemed that these dreams were trying to provide me answers to some questions I've been asking and to some unsettled stuff in the past...

But one of them was a nightmare where I dreamt of my greatest fear and greatest wish in the same episode...

Weird...

My 师公。。。

有您这么一位伟大的武术家为师公，我真的是感到很自豪！

能陪您走完最后这段路真是我荣幸！

师公，谢谢您为武术界付出的一切。。。您一路上走好。。。

08 Aug 2010

Happy Belated Birthday Singapore.... Seems that I always have a bad habit of belated wishes or presents...

Oops.... Though it's a little bit belated...
As usual, went to Changi Airport on the eve of National Day to have my annual ice cream on that day...

However, this yr was rather different as I went there when the clock struck 12 on the day...
The reason for this was that I thought I couldn't make it on the afternoon on the 08 itself?
Or probably never will again... well... seems that everything is ok and it was juz a 虚惊一场。。。 Haha...

Learnt something new: 人之将死，其言也善！！！

Haha....

Another one to my collection:

Sometimes a short run can be good....

Though I hate to run but sometimes it can help you destress and think thru lotsa things when doing some short run...
Been thinking alot these days...
Probably need a long long break...

Finally clock 10km...
Next run... 15km...

From 1 hand to no hand...

Thought it was bad enough to be having a injured right hand for 2 yrs...
Now only left with 1 hand with my left hand suffering the same fate...
Would be out of action for quite some time again...

Hotmail and Msn Back

Haha... Finally got back my hotmail, MSN and facebook!
What a tedious process...
But all the contacts in my msn gone... :(

Well... anyway I dun use msn much already... so be it ba...

No more time... Brain not working much... counting down....

Jiayou!!!

减肥ing from 07/06/2010

Wah... so looking forward to 07 june!
So many things I want to do...
Shall start with exercising, playing, slacking, etc...
Haven't been exercising for a few months already...
Hope all these would be over soon!

Still got two tough questions to go.... :(
Emo....

Counting down to 06/06/2010

Currently 66.67% down...
13 days left...
Effectively, only 4 full days left...

Will I be able to finish it in time?

A life without technology...

MSN, HOTMAIL AND FACEBOOK all kenna hacked!!!
Realized totally cut off from the world when you dun have all these technology...
Even a handphone is redundant...

Probably I can live a life without all these?

Haha...

以下的人与我有缘，有谁认识他们吗？

Birthdates on:

02月22日 03月30日 05月13日 05月19日
07月10日 07月26日 09月23日 10月09日
10月25日 11月08日 12月07日 12月16日

01月02日 01月11日 02月08日 03月24日
04月14日 04月22日 05月07日 07月20日
09月15日 10月01日 11月22日 12月03日

Haiz, I only know ppl whose birthdays are on 10月26日, 01月03日, 07月20日, all miss by 1 day...
Help me find them ? Haha...

我是不是应该安静地走开，还是该勇敢留下来？

或许该如此吧。。。

天下无不散之宴席。。。
人早晚都得各奔前尘， 各分东西。。。
大家都会以不一样的步伐前进着，追寻着自己的所求。。。
或许， 到最后， 只有那些会放慢/加快脚步来配合自己，
走在自己身边的，不离不弃的，才叫朋友吧。。。

朋友一生一起走，那些日子不再有，
一句话，一辈子，一生情，一杯酒，

朋友不乘孤单过，一声朋友你会懂，
还有伤，还有痛，还要走，还有我。。。

谢谢你，
走在身边的朋友。。。 :)

Never Been so Broke in my life....

Wow! Realised my bank account only left with SGD$1.00 exactly!
This is the record low liao... The previous record low was $10...

Now need to think who still owe me money liao...
N find ppl to treat me to eat liao ... :P

碟仙

Near knew can get this thing in Singapore... N the bookshop only sell it for SGD$2!!!
N left with only 1 set... sounds like the beginning of an eerie ghost story when someone crazy bought it, play with it, get cursed, bla bla bla...

Well, I tried 笔仙 and Psychic Circle b4, as 4 this.... Any takers?

Think I am moving towards the dark dark side liao .... Haha... :P

説明：
取相等于本图内圈大小之碟一只，碟底朝天，然后在碟边用黑墨画箭头一个，焚香三支。由虔心诚意者三人，用中指轻按碟底。三人预先决定请某某亡魂来临，默默通陈渠之姓名，贯藉，年龄。约半小时上下，亡魂请到时，碟子移动，并询问各种问题，由箭头指出图上之字，得到解答。

Actually, I wanted to take some pictures of it and post it in the web one.... But after some serious thoughts, I think better not... Think I am still sane... Haha...

Round Round Moon!

OOooo... The moon on the 15th was so big and round... so pretty....
Thought the moon only affect astrological signs of Pisces, Cancer and Scorpio...
Cancerians are usually affected the most...
Their mood swing with the presence of the moon...
Never knew that I would be so affected by it too...
So are the astrological signs accurate? Or do I belong to a new astrological sign?
Haha...
月亮真的能代表我的心吗？
So what does it represent when it is "圆" and what does it means when it's "缺"？
Well, no time to think of all these liao and also no time to indulge in any of my interests....
Must really focus for the next 3 months... 06 june!!!
Focus... Focus...

~ 月下浪人
(Haha.. havent use this pen name for many many years liao)

Back from Ramunia

Back from Ramunia and survived the big big waves... Well, this year the waves are not disappointing at all as we get at least 2m waves on the average...

It was definitely a very good getaway... away from the busy lifestyle and many many things to do... There, in Ramunia, all you need to do was to engage the challenging waves and thinking of nothing else... And after all the physical torture, would be a sumptous dinner followed by a good nite rest!

N I really mean a good nite rest... It was so seldom that I get to sleep 10hours a day... sometimes I would be glad i I get to lie down on bed to have a proper rest for > 2 hrs.... but in Ramunia, I felt refreshed, very much refreshed, though it was demanding on my body...

That was really a very good trip for me... at least it gave me the opportunity to rest and think... For the past few months, I do not have any time to think at all... Whatever energy I had was to use it to keep my eyes open... Busy, busy, busy...
N I shall see how long I can keep up with it... Probably, it's time, time to hand-over and step-down from all these busy life... Probably, it's time, to embark on a new lifestyle and put the past behind... It wouldn't make much of a difference to anyone anyway... There's always someone who can take over my position easily and I can finally rest...

Time flies and now it's 2010... It's a bad way to start the year off when you know that you have alot of stuff left over from the previous year... Maybe 年年有余？That's what u called it... but it doesn't look good from any angle....

Work, work, work... wushu? wushu? wushu? Studies, studies, studies... Kayak, red cross... and many of the miscellanous courses I am halfway through... seems that time is always not enough...

Balancing them is not possible at all.. The only option is to choose which to give up... It's a tough decision... Well, probably I'll stick to the old rule ... I'll go to where I am needed most.... Or... I can also choose to put aside everything and start everything afresh... Doing things which I should be doing instead of what I like to do... Well, something got to go.... it's just a matter of what.... still thinking, thinking, thinking....

Dateline approaching soon, 1 month down and left with only 5 months... Nothing is done yet... What a challenge! Really need to find time to sit down and answer those unanswerable questions... Do I have the energy to run the dash through the finishing line? Or would I be giving up on the final lap? I'll need the energy to face it... N it's all one my own again... No one can help me with it... so good luck ba!

This trip also make me realise how unfit I've become after I did not exercise for 4 months... I actually feel tired, breathless and weak after confronting the waves... Probably, age is catching up too? Haha.... Well, need to start exercising again...
Shall set a target for myself... Should go easy 1st... Every week 30km run, everyday 100 pull-ups, 200 abdominals and 100 jumps...

Hope I have enough time to complete these once my working schedule is more or less settled down....

Jiayou !!!

Setting a new record...

Not going to get any sleep for the next 48hrs....
Let see if I will survive through it... :P